Exactly Right Now

Geneen Roth says you're not stuck if you're not trying to go anywhere.
And that's supposed to be a good thing?

Maybe you are stuck because there isn't a direction you are headed for. Or you are not heading in a direction.

Headache.

I'm putting my directions away for this moment...
just going to enjoy or at least sit in this one particular moment.

10 hours before, after, and during

I'm a hide-r. That's a fact. Going out to the party is not my thing. It's the worrying before, worrying during, and the worrying after. Like 10 years after. 10 minutes after. 10 weeks after. It's too much.

It's a balancing act.... empty spaces, not too many, not too few... just enough....

Walking on a tight rope....

Just give me the remote so I can freeze the scene
and
hide.

Nothingness & Everything

Some days I think about writing here. Other days, it's too scary to type what I think. Because it makes it more real, and then I have to deal with it. Living in a fog, is great in the moment, but over a lifetime? Disappointing.